Fat experiences

I went to the beach the other day and underestimated how big my belly would look in my bikini from last year. I was embarrassed at the beach and felt like I was being judged. I have gained about 30 pounds this year accidentally and am getting used to all of this

Very sorry to hear you felt this way now going forward to her always going to have that in your mind. There’s nothing I can say no matter how complementary that will change it, but I certainly hope that you find the confidence to keep wearing the bikini and your current weight or should you decide to lose weight

I've definitely felt this, both in the past and this year... When I was in my low 200lb range I had a lot of newer red stretch marks on my belly, plus I was 18, and was out with other recent high school grads who were sticks, and this year as I went out after gaining a ton of weight this past year...

young me used lots of cocktails/alcohol as the way to feel more confident, current me packs to keep my mind busy: a good book, speaker for music, large beach blanket, swim goggles, and cash for ice cream/other snacks. Plus checking out other folks bellies you do adjust overtime, its more just trying to stay in the moment and not hyper focus on how you are being perceived that really helps in the end

[quote]MCC2018:
I went to the beach the other day and underestimated how big my belly would look in my bikini from last year. I was embarrassed at the beach and felt like I was being judged. I have gained about 30 pounds this year accidentally and am getting used to all of this[/quote

I can only imagine how shocked those who knew you with 30 less pounds would think, but generally people notice and think something is wrong. How yiu feel about the extra weight? Perhaps you get used to your bigger body and learn to accept and dress in a way that makes you feel confident and sexy. It will likely take time, but happy to chat and try to help you accept your body exactly how it is now.